Upon first thinking of writing this blog on the day I moved into my dorm I was soon too occupied to have the time to write anything. And so, after having time to cool off and remove myself from the situation and look at it from another perspective, I found that while I still believe that leaving my family and friends behind for this temporary extended stay in Bufuland will and has been quite a trial it has only put me one step closer to adulthood and true independence.
It took a fun day at the beach with some of my most bosom buddies and my beloved for the feeling of imminent separation to finally hit me - and it hit like a ton of bricks. The tears flowed ceaselessly as I held him to me, clutching at him like someone would take him from me. I cried as if someone was dying and I did not care because I felt the way I did. Talk about an extreme case of separation anxiety. But in the end I knew it was all pointless, tears will not keep us any closer than we all already are. In his case I am reminded of a very insightful 90’s song by Donna Lewis:
“I love you always forever
Near or far, closer together
Everywhere I will be with you
Everything I will do for you . . .”
That is not a very demanding request to uphold and I will constantly be doing my best.
As for family and friends, well, as the saying goes – Distance makes the heart grow fonder. Even though I have been on the phone with my grandmother approximately 3 times since the move and texted my dear heart multiple times as well, I have made the necessary adjustments that allow me to function as a valuable member of society. I love them all and nothing will change that!
Within this slightly traumatic, life-changing experience there is a light; a message that can be gleaned from this occurrence that many of us will share – we are never alone. No matter the distance, a truly strong relationship will outlast the most devastating events. In keeping an open mind about the situation and remaining strong, one can clearly see the end of the dark tunnel to the bright side of everything.
I know words may not be enough to satisfy everyone who sees them as empty promises but honestly if you feel that way I have to say that you are a hopelessly pessimistic person and you will not survive with your glass-half-empty state of mind so snap out of it and jump back to reality. Parting may be such (bitter) sweet sorrow but when you look deeper you’ll realize that you will survive. Get used to it! :]
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